my mind’s eyes

Hidupku seperti pengemis,
Tetapi masih berbumbung,
Masih bergaya,
Masih berharta.

Jiwaku tertekan,
Tetapi masih bergembira,
Ku cuba melawan segalanya,
Kepiluan,
Ku cuba menahan segalanya,
Penyeksaan.

Di suatu masa ku gembira,
Mengecapi kebebasan yang diingini,
Di suatu masa ku menangis,
Menyesali kebebasan yang diberi.

Di manakah arah tujuanku?
Harta, kerjaya, perjuangan, masa depan, keluarga atau agama?
Aku mahukan semua,
Aku tamak haloba,
Sedangkan kemampuan ku terbatas.

Di bawah cahaya bulan dan mentari,
Aku merenungi diri ini,
Apakah jalan yang ku tempuhi,
Menuju ke arah yang lurus?
Ataupun ke arah menuju neraka?

Birth was my first sin, be here,
to cry, with my scream silence tear…

Life was my second sin, just live,
mock this world, my opinions give…

Love was my third sin, to care,
just worship her, how did I dare…

Questioning was my fourth sin, raise
doubt,
my mind use, see no reasons when
look out…

Rebellion was my fifth sin, my own rules
make,
refuse to obey, not orders from others
to take…

Arrogance is my sixth sin, to my own
sins list,
to think I know, believe my own sins see
in life’s mist…

I will still have many sins, my own pride I
will fall,
I will regret most, hope redemption
before death call…

Death will be my last sin, to surrender
and die,
just release my life, to darkness and
oblivion fly…

~dead~